A woman I met Online

1. Have no idea how often this happens to other humans, does anyone have a constant stream of woman coming on to them, have one right now, who just wants me to come over and give her oral sex, not that I don't like that, give me that and that might be all I need and still feel like I swam with the GODS. Talked to many men over the years, when I bring this up, you would be surprised how many think that is DIRTY! WHY? cause it's not the same as sucking your DICK? Humans should be touched you dead brain, full stop. SO, I met a woman online and when I looked at her photo, all I could see was how much of the world I have not participated in, how small my world is, SHE glows in her womanhood, she is Spanish, her skin looks like God made her, I could look at her till the END and want to wrap myself in her EVERYTHING, so, why the long face? I can't see her, I can't Hear her, I can't Touch her, SHE lives in VALENCIA SPAIN. If you know my metaphors, I AM IN A BOX, just looking at myself and scratching to find my way out. SIDE THOUGHT- Why are all these women who look like they were touched by the hand of GOD, in every shot they look perfect, and are still showing me parts of their body. I have had many sexual experiences but to me that is not sexy to me, would rather see what she looks like when she gets up in the morning, that makes me want to go up behind her and pull her to me and show her how excited I am, I have Alway's had a good imagination. One of my favorite movies has two women making love and they never touch, but by the end of the scene, I couldn't snap out of it, because my jaw was on the floor. I WANT THAT and this woman is taking me there without even trying. I am a poor starving artist and a poor starving BUDDHIST, MY want is huge, but my grasp is small, If I had the money right now, I would get on a plain to meet this magnificent CREATURE.........

Don't even have enough to keep talking to her, it is a DATING site, so...........she has a too much pain in her life because of some stupid human, she will not pick up a phone because she has closed off to her nature as a human being to reach out......................now what?.....